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Thursday, August 21, 2008

- Pure Bliss... ;

Omg its been pretty darn long since i ever enter this site...sheeshh!

i hope everyone's doin fine..
iv been totally busy lately,i didnt even realise
i almost forgot abt my blog!jees!
haha..alot has been goin on lately..alot has changed..
alot has been happening,i dont even know where to start,mymy!!

First of all,iv made my decision with regards to my education,
i decided that its best that i retake my O's cuz without it,im nowhere
i know...its not like i failed all the damn papers,it only freakin math!
hurrhhh...the thought of it drives me up the wall..

i also recently join a modelling company..im just so psyched abt it!
not like im really commited to it,i just do it for fun,freelancing!
at this point of my life,im just so honoured to know that im doing gd!
im feeling greater than ever..my birthday has just passed,it was
fantabulous!errghhh yeah thats a new word to me...

Anyway fasting month is also comin,i cant wait to lose all those building
up pounds...sheeshh!!!i needa lose em.......haha..alot of things are comin up
i just hope i can handle em all well..im also goin for a holiday after raya..
so its gonna be fantastic!!!!i hope they're all gonna happen all as planned,
but u know..things dont always happen as planned..but oh well..lets just pray
for the best!im gonna bounce now..at the mean time,here's some snippets
of my portfolio..enjoy your time!lataaaaa!!

Love,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Oh hmmm...hi again!

havent got the time to hog on the comp these days..
been too busy with work..its getting tougher and tougher..
but oh well..gotta keep on surviving..
iv been pretty good lately..not that im totally enjoying it
but getting along with it....

alright now let's talk abt my current intimate life.
hurrrr....i dont know if i should call it a torture..
yes i have never been a patient person..
that i gotta admit it...
but really i dont know where im heading..
don't know where i should move on next?
okay..and so..iv been thinkin alot abt it
maybe im just being so overeacting..

Maybe yes!i am.......
ok i dont even know what im talkin abt!
maybe i should rephrase it again,
i'm on the verge of telling him...
but NO!i cant..cuz then it'll be equivellent
to me creating a murder suicide...
uhhhhhhhh...this is getting
dramatic...............boobooo.....

ok shut hannah shut upppp....!

Okay maybe due to previous past past past
is makin me feelin like this...but why?
scared of losing?oh bullshit hannah....
maybe?oh yeah.....hurrrrr....

this is insane....only people who frequent read my blog
would understand what the hell on earth im talkin about?
oh yeah.....uhuh!

im im im im im im im......uhhhhhhh.......

i think i'm....

Inlove,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

Friday, May 16, 2008

Well sometimes deep inside i feel like im empty.
just missing something..something that i long to have
but really what is it?

i can't be another person now can i?
i can't do things correctly these days.
i feel like more and more people in my life
are counting on me...im no super woman..
im just a normal girl who just wants to lead
a simple life..

Sometimes i feel like i wanna have a companion.
someone who holds me and say its alright to make mistakes.
i just feel like no one ever understands me these days.
im not tryna be selfish or rude or offend anyone.
its just that my close people are not getting me.

and so i met this particular guy..he seems nice..
he's funny..polite..simple..nothing complicated..
at least not for now..something in him that i feel
like i connect in him...i felt comfortable with him
even though it was the first time that i met him.

i could be myself when im with him..thats so unlike
ME especially around a guy..its fun just talkin to him.
he makes me feel special inside..as he told me abt his life
bit by bit i could understand how he feels..
i felt the connection..cliche u call it but i just know it!

Before this i could have never looked into a guy's eyes.
especially The someone..you know..
but as i did..my heart just started to race..
and i just know it he felt the same way..
i dunnoe..maybe i just imagine too much
but..hey,it could be true..

call me smitten..infatuated..
i dunnoe...but somehow i know what i feel.
i dont wanna be wrong again..
he's someone iv been talkin alot to..
someone whom iv been telling stories to.
stories which iv never told anyone in a long time
or maybe even none..deep inside im slowly trying to
know him,believe him,show him what my
true feelings are all about..

But i'm not gonna open totally..
it takes alot to gain my trust
it's gonna take a whole lotta time..
before anything can happen...
but i promise..some day..it will.

Love,
HannahBanana

Ps: I'm slowly falling for him.. =)

- Pure Bliss... ;

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Could it be?

i'm about to float..im about to dream!
but i dont know what im gonna dream..
tell me how i'm gonna figure this thing out called
confusion..fear?

There's light that i see
but i cant seem to cross the line
i just don't think that its the right time
to find somebody so kind

so hard,
so rare..pure
but there you are standing across the doorway

I see kindness in your eyes
could it be an illusion?
could it be another expression,impression?
i'm confused,im lacking of air..

Where's all the perfection that i searched for?
the imperfections that i seek now..
only then i knew what kind of person that's inside
i freeze a moment,to feel what you are
to know the true you..

the truth in your eyes,
could it be for real?

i wanna know.....

Hannah

- Pure Bliss... ;

Sunday, May 04, 2008

AS u guys can see..i post pictures which are super random.

i didnt know what to post.its been so crazy lately!
life has been nuthin but tiring and at the same time fun.
you know ups and downs but..its great.

my family and friends are super wonderful.
they're like my oxygen tank,without them im nothing really!
haha..my crazy bff's have been there for me all through out thick n thin!
i cant thank them more.when i felt like im stuck in somewhere i cant figure,
i turn to them for a route back home.

Syafiq wrote sumthin in his blog the other time and had this song playing
on his blog,it made me freakin CRY!i felt like im a total loser at first,
but knowing they're always there for me,im just truly blessed and im
thankful for that!

Chelsea and syafiq are people whom i know i can fully trust,no one else can!
i love you guys..

Oh not forgetting my family,yesterday my dad bought me a super cool
watch!its SEIKO watch,a very cool auto watch iv been yearning.
im like one nut head,didnt know that the watch was auto,checked out
the watch it was 9.40am,but it was actually already 2.45pm!hurrrr...
blurr cock!didnt know i had to adjust the time first...like i said blurr cock!

im enjoying life right now..all i know is that nuthin matters other than
HAPPINESS,like what my beloved aunt from down unda has told me
repeatedly: self content,satisfaction,security and HAPPINESS is what matters
the most in life. without them,you're nuthin!

true enough,iv learned that and its been well said.im glad she told me that or
i'd still be stuck in somewhere..i dunnoe..a rut maybe..i can understand now
how important it is to be self content and truly appreciate in what ur doing
at the moment.do what you wanna do..you know..do what you gotta do! ;)

i'm sick of tears,cuz its pointless..you might just dry em up in the end
and by the time when you finally needa cry them out,you might have
left with none.hah.so take it easy,life's nuthin but challenges and life's
nuthin without it.

I'm gonna find new memories now.

Cyah lata!

Lotsa LOVE,
HannahBanana =)

- Pure Bliss... ;

RANDOMMMMMM!!!

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

RANDOM-NESS

- Pure Bliss... ;

Another day,another shit huh!
Sometimes life can be such a bitch..

i dont know if im born clumsy or i dunnoe..its just a bitch!
i broke a glass table yesterday at work..yeah i did..
no bullshit..no nuthin,im serious...i kinda think that it happened
really fast..its like i didnt think it would happen so soon..
cuz i knew sooner or later the glass will break upon me..
just that i didnt see it comin so fast..a matter of time!

oh god..it was the most embarrassing thing iv ever done in my entire
work experience..its like errrghhhh...oh god!seeing splatter of glasses
right infront of me..knowing everyone was all around me..
and to make matters worst..the new CEO of robinsons was there
along with the rest of his big man..i was so ridiculed..didnt know
what on earth was i thinkin..thank god my manager,aisyah,was
there to bring me in...everyone was askin if i was okayy..jeeee..

the next thing i knew,all those kpo ding dongs were at my counter
asking and wondering what did happen..erghhh..wth!and now
everwhere i go at work,i cant help but to hear whispers and stares,
it just simply makes me feel weird,its like i broke their glass instead
of mine,i broke my own glass table at work,thats all that mattered to
me but nooo...not to them...they're like some psycho on my ass..

"that's the girl luh,that's the girl!" oh fuck u bitches...thats the thing
i hate about women's department...women are just full of bullshit
gossips....why cant they just lay off me!!seriously!im a woman too
but i dont go around chasing and wanting to know other people's ass!

hurrrr...its so sickening..work is just another bitch really...!!!!!i still am
traumatised about it..and this morning,i couldnt get up inspite the fact
that i set my alarm..i had this very important meeting at the office.
i didnt attend...uhhhhhh...what could get any worst?yikes...so in the end
i just told jolyn to go ahead w/o me.im super sorry lady!

to top that off,wendy my manager called me to ask where was i..
i said i was in bed!screw her!full of crap!

i gotta go..im really beat man..laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

Saturday, April 12, 2008

life...its the funniest thing i can say right now..
its funny,why?

well firstly becuz i cant find a reason why iv been pondering
over this super major stupid situation.

ummm..my friends are all in poly..they're either having fun in there
or dying due to the lack of relations with ppl..either which,hey..
just kidding!

on the other hand,im not..cuz im currently waiting to go overseas and study
but i dont know when..seriously..its a pending thing for me right now.
its brutally killing me..i wanna study again,i wanna see books.learn.
get to meet new people,gain more knowledge.get smarter~

hurrrrr......i cant stand it any longer..im currently still working my ass off!
its not a pleasureable thing i should say..i mean im not saying they're not
nice people,as a matter of fact they are..its only the freakin management.
so screwed up and everything...hurrr...

you can call me deprived,in need,the lack of,whatever..i just wanna go to
sch again...........lalalalala.........i hate working........boohooooo....

but hey on the other hand,im waiting to go for an interview with SIA.
how ironic is that...my family and friends have been so supportive of me.
i cant thank them even more....i dont know,i just think im not confident enough.
maybe becuz im just too scared to fail anyone..anyone that i care for..

they're like rooting on me..
i just cant imagine myself letting them down.
its not a nice feeling..it sucksss...bad bad..

anyway,im just thankful i have my loved ones backing my arse..
thats the most they can do for me right now..i love them.i cant ask for more.
i wanna improvise myself.i just dont wanna be down and frowned up anymore.
im through with it..from now on,im gonna find hope..create somethin fresh
in life..so that i can look forward to something new.

love?urrghhh,dont mention abt it..its horrible..i saw him the other day..
was told that he's with a new girl...can u believe that guy?oh goose!
whateverrrrr...guess man are just never satisfied with what they have.
right chels darl?right!totally...........

to syafiq,please get someone whos mentally sane..emotionally
stable.cute but not minah who thinks she's all that drama mama.
not those whom u think she can dance..cuz this is not
'so you think you can dance' reality tv show..its REALITY for god's sake..
i just wanna see my BFFs have a great time.

to chels,i wanna see u happy and bubbly again..get the perks up.
im sure u'll find someone in nyp...its a huge sch..so go get em girl!
oh and pass me the stuff so that i can shove it into his face.
i can hardly wait. :D

and as for me.....im gonna find something to cheer me up.
maybe a glass or two...of..oh u know what...haha,nahh im kidding!

im good.. ;)

lata!

Loves,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;